Today was another PTSD fail day. There are some days with this condition when it seems like there’s no way to win.
I did all of the usual daily maintenance things. Exercise, both cardio and strength. Eating and tracking what I eat. Prayer. Mindfulness practice. Journaling. Bible reading. I took my meds. Afternoon sleep. Plus all the normal house husband duties.
After all of this work, and yes a lot of it is a struggle, I still ended up mentally fighting through the evening with irrational fears, feelings of inferiority and a general mood one might describe as being a “butthead”.
The positive side is I also have really good days, or at least times during the day. Plus I managed to stay alive so I’ll be able to try again tomorrow.
With the recent changes happening in the United States I’ve been saddened, angered, disheartened by what I’ve seen. Yes, part of my disappointment has been from the un-Godly changes in our laws, but more of it has been caused by seeing people who profess to be Christians bowing to the pressure to be politically correct.
It has been most evident on social media. Seeing a person who one day shared a Christian meme, and the next day put a gay pride rainbow on. Combined with everything else happening on the world stage, it’s enough to make me want to give up.
But, God did not call me, or any of His children to give up. He called us to stand firm. He called us to prepare for battle. In Ephesians 6:10-20 every Christian is given his or her battle orders. Eph 6:10 starts with the imperative to stand your ground. It doesn’t say to stand down or give in so you can be nice. It says Stand Your Ground. Standing your ground doesn’t mean to hate. It doesn’t mean to demean. It’s not angry or mad.
What it is is a command to stand your ground in the face of what is wrong. If no one is standing up for truth, then how can the truth be known? Disagreeing with a lifestyle is not wrong. In fact, continuing to point to God is one of the most loving things you can do.
I’m very conservative and Christian. I’m pro gun. Anti abortion. I think people should work for what they need or want. I could go on, but you get the point.
I grew up in Indiana in a very democrat family. I’m the blacksheep of the family. I basically learned the democrat meant being a working man, or woman. They believed in God and the Bible. The believed in gun rights. In many ways, they were the conservatives of today with a few differences.
I’m wondering where those democrats went? Are they really all gone? Most of, if not all of the democrats I knew would not have been decorating anything with rainbows after the recent supreme court fiasco. They wouldn’t be fighting for open borders in the name of being politically correct.
The democrats I knew would have never dreamed of burning the American Flag. They also wouldn’t fight to force anyone to do away with the confederate flag.
The democrats I knew all had guns. They didn’t believe that the government should be the overseer of what was good for everyone. In fact, the democrats I knew didn’t really trust the government no matter which party it claimed.
Are all of those democrats gone? Did they die out at some point during the last 30 years and I missed it? I cannot picture anyone I knew from central Indiana in the 80’s hanging a gay pride flag at their house or anywhere else. They thought abortion was an abomination. Where are they? Are they too afraid to speak up? Are they too afraid to lose something if they stand up?
What happened to them?