If any of you have read any of my other blog posts, you know that I deal with complex PTSD. I won’t go into all of the struggles that come with it, you can read some of those on other posts. I will say that I’ve been out of work because of it for quite a while. I’ve spent many days asking God why? I’ve also spent a lot of time wondering if I’ll be able to work again and how. Who would hire someone who has this medical issue to work around. After all, it’s a condition that sometimes makes it next to impossible for me to convince myself to even leave my house. Depending on the day’s severity, I may have trouble remembering what I did 5 minutes ago.
I must say though that over time I have learned many new tricks to compensate for the changes PTSD has caused. You can equate it to someone loosing their legs and then learning new ways to move around. I keep learning these new ways of compensation and will probably continue to do so.
So, now to the true point of this post. I had started to resign myself to an unemployed existence. Although, my wife and I have continued to pray for a miracle of some sort. We’ve prayed continuously that He would take care of us, however that may be.
And now the miracle. A couple of weeks ago, Jodi(my wife) and I decided to drive up to north Georgia. We had no particular destination in mind. It was just another Saturday and we were board. As we were going I saw a sporting goods store in Jasper and we decided to stop in just to kill some time. While there we ran into the Compton’s. We knew of them, but didn’t know them well. Jodi and Beth started talking and find out that they needed a project manager in their company and I have done the job before.
In short order I met with Ken and Beth, took a personality test to see if I was a good fit for the job and found out that I was a great fit for what they needed. So, an unplanned trip to an out of the way place lead to a job. Neither of us could have guessed that God would answer our prayer in this way. In fact, it’s a set of circumstances that we couldn’t have orchestrated if we tried. There were/are too many parts and pieces that needed to come together in a perfect way for it all to work out. That is something that only God could do.
To be completely transparent, I’m not sure exactly how it all happened. God was working too many pieces for me to even attempt to grasp it all. In the end it’s not my job to understand it all. My job is to trust Him and move through the doors He opens and stop trying to open doors that He has closed.
No matter what someone tries to tell you or how you feel, God has not left you. He will also never leave you. This is not prosperity gospel by any stretch of the imagination. We had to go through some very dark times to get to today and there will be more of those ahead. But, if you and I keep our hope and faith in the God of the universe then we can see the dark times as nothing more than a training ground. We can also rest peacefully in the fact that God also has bright and awesome blessings waiting for each and every one of His children.
It’s hard for me to end this post because I don’t feel that I’ve adequately conveyed the miracle that He did. I think I would have to chronicle most of the last 2 or 3 years for you to get that picture. But, you don’t have the time to read all of that and I’ve got work to do.